lies

i lied to travis yesterday. i didnt mean to, it just popped out. the first lie was just a simple "no" when he asked me a question. but once that was out of my mouth, i felt like i had to keep going with the lies to make that one stick. so i made up a bunch of stuff and just kept lying. my face was all hot and i was having these high school flashbacks from when i would lie to my dad about whether i had a test the next day. now dont get me wrong, travis is nothing like my dad, and i dont normally make a habit of lying to him. but for some reason, when he asked me the question, my first instinct was to lie. i cringe now just thinking about it. so after i told the 5 or 6 lies that i had to tell to back up the first lie, i left the room. i went to take a shower and i thought about all of the ways that i could have played that differently. when i got out, he was laying in bed with the lights off. i got in bed and asked him if he was awake. when he said he was, i simply said, "i lied to you". i think he probably knew i was lying to start with (like i said, my face was all red, and i was stumbling over my words which i dont normally do). he asked why and i told him, and i immediately felt better for getting it off of my chest. im sure he felt worse, which is what i was trying to save him from when i lied in the first place. the moral of this long and rambling story is DONT LIE! and if you do, make sure you are better at it than i am.

twins

so beth at ishouldbefoldinglanudry held a contest to see who could guess the sex(es) of the babies she is currently incubating. now this was a super fun contest for me seeing as how im baby-obsessed and all. so i guessed that she was having two boys. i was secretly hoping for identical boys. well dadgummit, guess what? i was right (along with 21 other people), but it just so happens that i was the one who not only was right, but i won a $25 amazon gift card. now how saweeeeet is that? im really exited because the day i found out i won was the day i was sitting in my baby doctors office waiting for my second iui, just checking all the bogs i read on my super handy iphone. so im hoping that some of beths baby lottery luck will rub off on me. if not, at least i can go shopping at amazon.

slacker, part one

ok, so i know i have been absent for a little while. ok, a long while. there has been so much going on over the christmas holidays. we had my family over for christmas at my house, which went a heck of a lot better than it could have. i was preparing myself for the worst. so i was mildly surprised and pleased when it wasnt a total disaster. then, we spent christmas day at travis' parents house. that was ok, except for his younger sister and her boyfriend. they are disgustingly pda oriented. they cant even separate long enough to eat a meal. i glanced up right in the middle of christmas lunch and they are making out and snuggling at the table. the table!!! hello!!! am i the only one who thinks this is totally inapropriate???? well travis thinks it is too, only he doesnt go on and on about it like i do. but whatever. i will post the rest tomorrow...im running late. its new years eve, so i will see ya next year!!

wordless wednesday

maybe baby

i went to the baby doctor last week. he is actually a "reproductive endocrinologist", but travis prefers if i just say "baby doctor". he is going to try something new this month. well, its actually not new, but since so far, they havent done anything with me but test for things, anything proactive is considered "new". they are going to put me on a drug that is used for breast cancer patients, but which has also been shown to stimulate ovulation. i am exited to finally be DOING SOMETHING!! it has been almost two years of nothing but disapointment. the really good news is that my insurance should be paying for most of it. if they werent, i dont think we would be able to do it. which really sucks. there is legislaition in congress right now that would make all insurance companies that offer maternity benefits cover infertility treatments as well. research shows that it would cost approximately $1 more in peoples premiums to be able to cover. and yet they dont do it. who knows why?? anyway, i didnt mean for this to turn into a vent...i am actually pretty happy about it all right now. i am cautiously optimistic. after two losses, you learn not to get too exited too quickly. but i am also hopeful. i do believe that the LORD is good. i already have more than i deserve!!! but we always want more dont we? human nature i guess.

wordless wednesday

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wordless wednesday

the war on laundry

ok, i know i have been posting a lot lately so scroll on down and read them all. but i wanted to give you a leeetttle peek at the product of the whole "laundry war of 2007". im winning.

all of this laundry is folded although you cant tell. except for the pile of hanging clothes that i have carefully draped over to one side. now im just waiting for the day to come when i can actually go to my closet and pick out something to wear. its good to have dreams...

im not too proud to accept charity

look at me, look at me!!!!! i am the COOLEST!!! whoa...mental head slap...what the hell was i thinking???? ok, so i am NOT the coolest, but apparently vdog and little man felt sorry enough for me to give me a charity award. she gave me the egel award!!!! i am the awesomest! wait, no sorry...i keep getting caught up in the moment. anyway...she is super funny, and cool, and she lives in cali, which we all like to make fun of but secretly dream of doing. fyi, i was born in cali...something i dont often share, so consider yourselves privledged, people. i mean really. i havent even told my husband that. thats not true, but it made ya feel good for a second didnt it? i thought so. anyway, go check her out!!!

Thirsty Thursday

im starting a new trend in blogging....every thursday i am going to post a new drink! :) since its almost the weekend, im sure we are all thinking about what kind of sweet concoctions we would like to imbibe. here is my current favorite...
there is no specific recipe, but i absolutely LOVE Pama Liqueor. If you want, you can drink it straight like wine, or i like to mix it with about 4 parts pama to one part sprite zero. the sprite gives it a little bit of a kick. you can also make a pama margarita...very tasty. and pama martinis, lets not forget those. although, i dont think they are actually made with pama, they are made with pomegranite vodka. i think.
anyway, if you have any good suggestions, please let me know. im not a big drinker, especially since we are trying to get preggo, but i love collecting recipes.
speaking of recipes...one of these days i am going to share the enchilda recipe that i stole from beth at i should be folding laundry. i amended it a little, but its still super tasty.

SPOT

i want another dog. you probably already know that i have two babies, i mean dogs, and i definitely dont need another. BUT. this dog is so sweet. and so pitiful. and he doesnt get any attention and he wont cost any money and i will walk him every day and i will be the one to take care of him and you wont have to do anything and you will love him i promise and oh, crap. sorry...i went into my "convince the husband" mode. i'm sellin this dog idea pretty hard. and he's not buyin. i've been yanking on his hearstrings for a couple of days now. the dog currently belongs to my parents who give it NO attention...it is a bird dog and therefore relegated to "kennel life". so travis says "if your parents will pay for it, you can bring him home." well duh. of course they are not going to pay for us to take the dog...they are fine with leaving him right where he is. any suggestions?

laundry

so my husband and i both work full time, and each of us has a two hour per day commute. nice huh? so we both pretty much split the housework. there are no set rules, like he does the kitchen, i do the bathrooms, its just that we both put off whatever needs to be done until we both just break down and do it. except for the laundry. now, we all know that you HAVE to have clean clothes. so they pile up in the laundry room until we dont have anything to wear, and then i usually end up throwing them all in the washer. now there used to be this unspoken rule...i would wash all of the clothes, if he would fold them. (neither of us would put them away, they would just sit in the baskets where we would grab them as needed). well a couple of months ago, travis just stopped folding the clothes. no reason, no explanation. just stopped. but i kept washing, so i would just pile the clothes out of the dryer on to the top of the dryer where they would stay until we needed them. (we are classy people). occasionally, the pile would grow to such gargantuan proportions that i would have to haul it to the couch where it would sit for weeks. until one day my dear sweet husband says "sweetie, i dont mean to be mean, but you are not allowed to do laundry anymore unless you fold it."

excusemewhatthehelldidyoujustsayimusthaveheardyouwrongright?????

oh no he didnt.

so i said, (like the responsible, mature adult that i am), "ok, well i just wont do it at all. so there."

so i didnt do any laundry. until i ran out of clothes. and i had to do laundry. but being the crafty person that i am, i only did my laundry. and i still piled it on top of the dryer. this went on for about a month until i couldnt take it anymore. so yesterday i made a deal. i told travis that i would fold all of the laundry if he would put it away...a task that both of us hate more than folding. he actually agreed to it...but so far i am about sixteen loads ahead of him. all of the clothes are still on top of the dryer....but now they are folded. i think i am going to say to him, ever so nicely, "sweetie, you are not allowed to wear clothes anymore unless you put them away."

that ought to go over well.

wordless wednesday

nothing

i have started a first sentence for this blog about 7 times already, and for the life of me i can think of anything to blog about. so im just checking in. ill post tomorrow....if i can think straight.

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she's not pregnant...and neither am i

ok, so for all of my readers (who so far total "0"), my best friend is not pregnant. she found out this weekend. and i have to say, i was a little bummed. i had (mostly) gotten over the jealousy/murderous rage, and i was exited. so now i am disapointed. i promise, i'll get over it. the thing that sucks is, im not pregnant either. and i want to be. desperately. that one is not so easy to get over.

my best friend

my best friend is bethany. we have been friends since 9th grade. which i have come to realize lately, is a really long time. 11 years. i have just gotten to the age where i can think of my life in terms of decades. and i have to tell you, its freakin me out a little. to be able to say oh that was 10 years ago. holy crap that is scary!!! whats even scarier is that the other day, i started talking about something that happened almost twenty years ago. and i REMEMBER it. yikes. suffice it to say, i am having a problem (at the ripe old age of 24) with aging. i dread getting any older. i have a couple of gray hairs already, and i am noticing a few "fine lines and wrinkles". needless to say, these sent me into a weeks worth of panic. anyway, back to the point of this post which i believe was bethany. ok, so she is my very best friend. and let me tell you folks...she is a dang baby-makin robot. she is married to my ex. they started dating after high school, and within two weeks....BAM!!!! she was knocked up. so they got married, and had the first of their cute blond children..."dora". i was no where near married, i hadnt even met travis at this point. so then, exactly one year later, she gets pregnant again, and in nine months, out pops "boots". not ever ones to do things half-assed, she gets pregant again...one year later. out comes "lucy". at this point i have been married for almost a year...still havent started ttc. so while they were pregnant with lucy, they decided to have david neutered. GOOD FREAKIN IDEA GENIUSES!!!! so all is fine and good until this week. little lucy is two and a half, they are settled into their little "family of five" routine until she calls me and says "im a week late, and i had two positive tests" i say "oh wow, that is pretty crazy, but its great!!" i think "this is so unfair i cannot believe you would do this to me". of course she didnt do it on purpose, and she wants ME to be pregnant way more than she wants to be pregnant herself, but still...its a little disapointing, ya know? she will always be my best friend, but i just dont know if i can go to one more of her baby showers. the funny thing is though, i would absolutely LOVE for her to have another baby. im so conflicted.

what the hell is a blog?????

ok, so i have recently become addicted to blogging. not doing it myself, but reading other people's blogs. i am a chronic lurker. but i have discovered this amazing little network of bloggers. most of the ones that i really enjoy are from some ladies out in the midwest. i read one of their blogs, and that turned into me spending 8,487 hours catching up on all of these unknown peoples lives. which is kinda funny actually, considering that i am so incredibly unfocused. but that just shows you how facinating and clever all of these women (and one man) are. but i am a virgin blogger. a vlogger, if you will. please be gentle. haha. dont really know why i am doing it. i guess i have a need to feel like the "cool" people. my life isnt fascinating. in fact, the most notable thing about my life is that its so ordinary. but i love it. well thats not true. i hate various parts of my lfe with a passion, but i love the important stuff. for instance: i hate my job. but i love my husband. i hate worrying about money. but i love my dogs. there, i am totally normal and balanced. or my therapist says i will be after my next round of electroshock therapy. lets just see how this goes shall we???