maybe baby

i went to the baby doctor last week. he is actually a "reproductive endocrinologist", but travis prefers if i just say "baby doctor". he is going to try something new this month. well, its actually not new, but since so far, they havent done anything with me but test for things, anything proactive is considered "new". they are going to put me on a drug that is used for breast cancer patients, but which has also been shown to stimulate ovulation. i am exited to finally be DOING SOMETHING!! it has been almost two years of nothing but disapointment. the really good news is that my insurance should be paying for most of it. if they werent, i dont think we would be able to do it. which really sucks. there is legislaition in congress right now that would make all insurance companies that offer maternity benefits cover infertility treatments as well. research shows that it would cost approximately $1 more in peoples premiums to be able to cover. and yet they dont do it. who knows why?? anyway, i didnt mean for this to turn into a vent...i am actually pretty happy about it all right now. i am cautiously optimistic. after two losses, you learn not to get too exited too quickly. but i am also hopeful. i do believe that the LORD is good. i already have more than i deserve!!! but we always want more dont we? human nature i guess.